19 years ago, I consecrated myself to the Blessed Mother. At the time, it was both the hardest and the easiest choice I have ever made.
I was raised Baptist, we never taught about the Saints or the Blessed Mother accept in passing.
I had lost my faith the previous year, and became a secret atheist. I couldn't believe in a God that hated me, and whose followers were such self righteous hypocrites. I hated God. I hated the Church, and more than anything, I hated myself.
One night, in the December of 1994, I decided to kill myself. It wasn't a rash decision. I had made pro and con tables and given it a lot of thought, and believed the best thing I could do was end my life. Through a series of circumstances I cannot fathom to this day, I stumbled on a copy of The Secret of the Rosary by St Louis De Montfort. In one of the introductory chapters, he wrote:
All my life I was told that God hated me, and there was nothing I could do about it. I was curious how this Rosary could do anything. So, I read through the whole book. I was moved to my core, but I didn't have a rosary. I counted the beads on my fingers and recited my first rosary.
Something changed within me. I felt a love that I never thought could be real. I cried myself to sleep that night.
I hunted down all of his books, including The Secret of Mary and True Devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary. In these books, St Louis recommends a 33 day preparation and a Total and True Consecration to the Blessed Mother. I chose the Feast of the Annunciation for my consecration day, and started my preparation.
The Feast of the Annunciation
Through this process, and over the years that followed, I have learned many things about the Annunciation of Our Lord.
Did it happen?
Yes, yes, a thousand times yes! I get so tired of people who do not understand spirituality asking questions about metaphysical truth in history. Historical truth is a beautiful thing, but life is affected by stories not events.
If we ask, "Exactly what happened to Mary on that day 2000 years ago?" We have fallen off the path. Did she see an angel? just hear a voice? How exactly did she conceive the child? All of these questions are distractions. They draw our eyes away from the story which tells us a poor young Jewish girl, surrounded by oppression and poverty conceived a Child not from this world.
A biological child is born into a world where survival of the fittest is the only law. Her Child is the Son of the Most High, who seeks compassion over survival and power. No one who lives only by the flesh can enter the kingdom of God, which is compassion, light, and justice. Mary's Son would be different:
The Angel's Annunciation is for you
The call to give birth to the Son of God still goes out to this day. The difference is, no longer does an angel deliver the message, but Christ himself: "Behold, I stand at the door and knock ; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me (Revelation 3:20)."
Open the door, and let Jesus into your heart. Awaken to the interconnectedness of all things. Lift up the low. Raise up those who need your help to stand. Have the courage to live in the Light. Walk in Compassion and Justice.
Sisters and Brothers, turn your heart toward the One who holds all things together and walk the path of Spirit until Christ Jesus is born through you into the world. You are not alone. In the Matrix of the Blessed Mother who molded the Christ, we will be formed into the perfect and true Image of God.
How do we do this, we follow the example of our Blessed Mother: